I really think that girls are scary. Like not like horror scary like the amount of drama that I have is re-tarded. Luckily for me I am avoiding it the best that I can...
Some drama and back stabbing came up from my past. Apparently a "best-friend" that I used to call my best friend for many years, slept with one of my exes like a week after he broke up with me...
Ya she is a gem.
Oh well she doesn't live here anymore so I guess I can live with the fact that people make STUPID drunken mistakes. Eww. The thought of it makes me want to puke in my mouth. again. She used to be cute but then resorted to cigs ( a pack a day ) and lots and lots of beer. Anyways, whats done is now done and nothing I can do to change the past.
FUCK. She is calling me right now this is awkward.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
The truth about love?
Well I hate to say it but even though I am hopeless romantic all the time, I have to be realistic lately. I got a different perspective from a fellow employee that I work with about love. He told me that he does not believe in love, or marriage or relationships. He does not want to get married, he does not want kids and he thinks that love is a joke and it is something that people make up as a fantasy in their head. Hmm... I was very put off by his negative attitude about love...until he explained his theory.
He explained to me that he does not think that one person can be faithful to the other person, that instead of telling the truth we lie in our relationships so we don't hurt the other person's feelings. We don't show our true colors for a long time and then it is too late (esp for guys I thought) so instead we lie or become these people that, in fact, we are not. Also the divorce rate is way larger then those couples that actually do stay married. Look at your parents or your friends' parents how many are still really married? (mine never even got married after my mom had me AND my older sister by the time she was 20 and my dad was 22!)
I was in shock at his reasoning, because I really do see the perfect relationship with this guy that I really care about to death, but I have not even been with him for that long... Ugh. Then there is my wretched past that does not EVER escape me. You know that one relationship that was so on and off you are not really sure if it was even real, but when you weren't wanting to kill eachother you actually saw a future?? Ha. ya. Kill me.
SO. I am really having some major questions in my head here. Was he right? And does love not exist? It's just a fantasy we make up in our heads? I sure hope not, because even if i did get this theory and information that made me question love, I still totally believe in it. Call me Charlotte from Sex and the City who wants the fairy tale ending... but I do.
I will totally step into the new roller coaster ride that I about to encompass with that new special someone with a strong head on my shoulders and my heart in his hands.
He explained to me that he does not think that one person can be faithful to the other person, that instead of telling the truth we lie in our relationships so we don't hurt the other person's feelings. We don't show our true colors for a long time and then it is too late (esp for guys I thought) so instead we lie or become these people that, in fact, we are not. Also the divorce rate is way larger then those couples that actually do stay married. Look at your parents or your friends' parents how many are still really married? (mine never even got married after my mom had me AND my older sister by the time she was 20 and my dad was 22!)
I was in shock at his reasoning, because I really do see the perfect relationship with this guy that I really care about to death, but I have not even been with him for that long... Ugh. Then there is my wretched past that does not EVER escape me. You know that one relationship that was so on and off you are not really sure if it was even real, but when you weren't wanting to kill eachother you actually saw a future?? Ha. ya. Kill me.
SO. I am really having some major questions in my head here. Was he right? And does love not exist? It's just a fantasy we make up in our heads? I sure hope not, because even if i did get this theory and information that made me question love, I still totally believe in it. Call me Charlotte from Sex and the City who wants the fairy tale ending... but I do.
I will totally step into the new roller coaster ride that I about to encompass with that new special someone with a strong head on my shoulders and my heart in his hands.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
When is it going to END?
I have to say that I used to not care so much what people thought. The world would be falling down all around me and I would be like "It's ok, it's ok!" Ha ha well not so much anymore. This hell hole of a town makes it hard not to care what people think or say about you. At least lately for me. People that I used to trust everything with are saying hurtful things that I cannot handle anymore. Also, I feel like some "friends" no longer call me just to say "hi" they are calling to ask to borrow something, they need a favor or they just need something from me. It is very disheartening. I am really starting to shove people away that I used to be close with because I feel like I am a doormat for them to walk all over. I know, waaa, cry me a fricken river, right?!
Ha! I am not EVEN trying to feel sorry for myself, I am opening my eyes to the real people of this town and they are showing me their true colors! I feel like it's actually revealing. All people that I have unresolved issues with are out in the open and friendships have ended, and you know what I am OK with that!
I would rather have a handful of very close friends then a bunch of people that call themselves my friends and talk crap behind my back.
I think I could write a book on how many times I have been screwed over by bitches. And it's not just girls.
Maybe there is something wrong with me...wait... nope. I consider myself a pretty damn good friend!
LOL. Well anyways, all I want is to be with my guy and move to San Diego and meet new girls and keep my small circle of girlfriends here close and start a life of adventure without the drama! Aaah I cannot wait till then!! Until then I will have to keep my eye out for the fake labeled girls/guy friends and focus on myself!!
Ha! I am not EVEN trying to feel sorry for myself, I am opening my eyes to the real people of this town and they are showing me their true colors! I feel like it's actually revealing. All people that I have unresolved issues with are out in the open and friendships have ended, and you know what I am OK with that!
I would rather have a handful of very close friends then a bunch of people that call themselves my friends and talk crap behind my back.
I think I could write a book on how many times I have been screwed over by bitches. And it's not just girls.
Maybe there is something wrong with me...wait... nope. I consider myself a pretty damn good friend!
LOL. Well anyways, all I want is to be with my guy and move to San Diego and meet new girls and keep my small circle of girlfriends here close and start a life of adventure without the drama! Aaah I cannot wait till then!! Until then I will have to keep my eye out for the fake labeled girls/guy friends and focus on myself!!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
STRESS
As I sit here with so many things dancing around in my mind, a tear rolls down my face. Why do I let myself get so stressed out? There is a book my parents had in the bathroom called "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff." I used to read it as I sat on the toilet and think, ya sure, don't sweat having 3 finals, no money, bf just dumped me and I am fighting with my best friend. FML. ha. Well, today I was dealing with most of those problems (only problems 1 and 2) and as I was crying, I received an email from my dad and he actually helped me out financially with my trip to Spain! I never ever though that would happen! I am so overjoyed I could cry with tears of happiness, not sadness!
Now to deal with the 3 finals that I have pretty much back to back tomorrow! I wish that teachers would know that not only do we have to stress about all the damn small stuff, the big stuff like graduating and getting As makes us pretty much so damn stressed we end up in the hospital with anxiety attacks and can't breath!! Now I am just babbling, I needed to write something because writing helps me relax.
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Now to deal with the 3 finals that I have pretty much back to back tomorrow! I wish that teachers would know that not only do we have to stress about all the damn small stuff, the big stuff like graduating and getting As makes us pretty much so damn stressed we end up in the hospital with anxiety attacks and can't breath!! Now I am just babbling, I needed to write something because writing helps me relax.
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Wednesday, April 15, 2009
WOW
May 23, 2008 - Friday
Spur of the momentness......... Current mood: adventurous Category: Travel and Places
So pretty much I have never done what I did this past Wednesday...
Have you ever been so mad at someone, something or some situation that all you can do is scream, cry or just plain wanna fight someone? Well I have and that was not too long ago this past Wednesday. Now I am not going into detail the severity of the situation bc it's not even a big deal... but I was HAMMERED, no really, like so drunk I was taking shots of Jameson (by myself) at the bar and then at 4 a.m. I thought it was a good idea to get out my credit card and book a flight to LAS VEGAS.
I am from there so its not like I was like ok, let me book a flight and then stay at the Motel 6, no I just wanted to get the hell outta suck town.
SO around 7 a.m. I was flying into Vegas and the plane landed and I was passed the hell out, so I thought we were crashing and I screamed! lol, the man next to me probably thought I was crazy.
I then proceeded to ask him, "Excuse me, sir, are those your water bottles?" He responded... "ya...." I said, "Can I buy one off you?" He was like, "sure... but they are water from the water fountain." I was like I DO NOT CARE, how much do you want?" lol he refused to take money from a drunkass and just gave me it. Bless his heart.
At this point I was still hammered. I called my mom who had already gotten a drunk dial from me at 3 a.m. (parents love those) and said, "Hey what are you doing?" "She was like ummm sleeping..." "Ok well come pick me up from the airport I am here." She was a little shocked.
So I get onto that stupid little train that u have to go to baggage claim in I am already fucking spinning and I swear I almost threw up on the person next to me.
My mom came and got me and then I was like, "oh, shit. I work tonight." Ya thank you Kyle for covering my shift you are amazing.
So I had a good time here in Vegas. Sometimes you just need to see your family and friends and the people you grew up with. Also it is good to just get the hell away for a little bit!
But Reno, don't you worry your pretty little head, I will be back in 4 hours!!!!!!!
-Kristina
Spur of the momentness......... Current mood: adventurous Category: Travel and Places
So pretty much I have never done what I did this past Wednesday...
Have you ever been so mad at someone, something or some situation that all you can do is scream, cry or just plain wanna fight someone? Well I have and that was not too long ago this past Wednesday. Now I am not going into detail the severity of the situation bc it's not even a big deal... but I was HAMMERED, no really, like so drunk I was taking shots of Jameson (by myself) at the bar and then at 4 a.m. I thought it was a good idea to get out my credit card and book a flight to LAS VEGAS.
I am from there so its not like I was like ok, let me book a flight and then stay at the Motel 6, no I just wanted to get the hell outta suck town.
SO around 7 a.m. I was flying into Vegas and the plane landed and I was passed the hell out, so I thought we were crashing and I screamed! lol, the man next to me probably thought I was crazy.
I then proceeded to ask him, "Excuse me, sir, are those your water bottles?" He responded... "ya...." I said, "Can I buy one off you?" He was like, "sure... but they are water from the water fountain." I was like I DO NOT CARE, how much do you want?" lol he refused to take money from a drunkass and just gave me it. Bless his heart.
At this point I was still hammered. I called my mom who had already gotten a drunk dial from me at 3 a.m. (parents love those) and said, "Hey what are you doing?" "She was like ummm sleeping..." "Ok well come pick me up from the airport I am here." She was a little shocked.
So I get onto that stupid little train that u have to go to baggage claim in I am already fucking spinning and I swear I almost threw up on the person next to me.
My mom came and got me and then I was like, "oh, shit. I work tonight." Ya thank you Kyle for covering my shift you are amazing.
So I had a good time here in Vegas. Sometimes you just need to see your family and friends and the people you grew up with. Also it is good to just get the hell away for a little bit!
But Reno, don't you worry your pretty little head, I will be back in 4 hours!!!!!!!
-Kristina
Happiness
Things that make me happy! Current mood: blessed
Things that make me happy:-My boo :)-My amazing friends (: -Listening to John Mayer-Trivia Night at the Taphouse on the river-Mashed potatoes and gravy (KFC's are amazing)-Working out and taking Patrick's Hip hop classes-Quiting my job and never been so sure in my life that I wanted a change! -Bartending! -Dirty Filthy grey goose martinis! Carina got me hooked! Love you Bean-Vacays, even if it is for a day and night to see a movie with my mommy in Las Vegas. -Getting a phone call and seeing that it is my older sister, lil sis or lil bro. -Romantic, silly, cheesey comedies-Surfing the web-Doing nothing but laying in bed all day with my two boys (Matt and his dog Willie). -Watching the Broncos win. -New things, like a new pizza cutter, t-shirt, or getting my nails or hair did! -Kareoke and rapping haha I can actually rap! -My grades being above average like last semester! 3.5 GPA baby! -Getting ready to study abroad in Spain this summer! -Brooke and I hanging out! -Not feeling hungover haha! -Magazines!! Love reading them cover to cover!-Buying art.-Facebook chat! -Blogging! -Summer!! CAN IT HURRY AND GET WARM!?-Playing my banjo, I am still learning the chords Pat Pat! -Catching up with my best friend in Las Vegas, Michelle! -Having coffee and gossiping with Jackie C.! -Having roomie time! -Polly Pocket my kitty sitting on my lap and purring! -laughing! =D
Things that make me happy:-My boo :)-My amazing friends (: -Listening to John Mayer-Trivia Night at the Taphouse on the river-Mashed potatoes and gravy (KFC's are amazing)-Working out and taking Patrick's Hip hop classes-Quiting my job and never been so sure in my life that I wanted a change! -Bartending! -Dirty Filthy grey goose martinis! Carina got me hooked! Love you Bean-Vacays, even if it is for a day and night to see a movie with my mommy in Las Vegas. -Getting a phone call and seeing that it is my older sister, lil sis or lil bro. -Romantic, silly, cheesey comedies-Surfing the web-Doing nothing but laying in bed all day with my two boys (Matt and his dog Willie). -Watching the Broncos win. -New things, like a new pizza cutter, t-shirt, or getting my nails or hair did! -Kareoke and rapping haha I can actually rap! -My grades being above average like last semester! 3.5 GPA baby! -Getting ready to study abroad in Spain this summer! -Brooke and I hanging out! -Not feeling hungover haha! -Magazines!! Love reading them cover to cover!-Buying art.-Facebook chat! -Blogging! -Summer!! CAN IT HURRY AND GET WARM!?-Playing my banjo, I am still learning the chords Pat Pat! -Catching up with my best friend in Las Vegas, Michelle! -Having coffee and gossiping with Jackie C.! -Having roomie time! -Polly Pocket my kitty sitting on my lap and purring! -laughing! =D
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Spain here I come!
I am really excited to be going to San Sebastian, Spain this summer! I am also very excited to just be getting out of NO-town for a little bit of the summer! A month and half will clearly not be enough to be in Europe and see all that I want to see, but I will be going back for sure!
I need to finally get my freakin passport! I know, I know, I should have gotten this so many months ago, but studying abroad was really like a spur of the moment thing! I woke up one morning and was like, well ya, I am gonna do it! Screw going with anyone else, I am going by myself and will have NO trouble making friends here. Ha, I have so many friends on myspace I deleted it and started over because I couldn't keep up with how many people I was friends with! LOL I am not trying to be conceited either, I just really like to have a lot of friends. I only have a about a handful of really good, loyal friends. That is fine with me because quality is way harder to find then quantity!
Anyways, back to Spain!! I am going on a group flight on June 23rd from San Francisco, CA and then we fly to Heathrow, England Airport. And then I imagine we are going to be flying to Spain? Or maybe taking a train of some sort, honestly I have no clue! That picture above is of San Sebastian! I am soo excited I want to scream (I am in Starbucks on campus, so I won't, haha)!
Well I need to go get my passport, I just wanted to express how happy I am to be going!
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